On Overcoming Fears
I wrote this piece years back after I watch the film Gattaca for a friend I was beginning to open up my defenses. But it was fleeting and gone before I even realized that I have uncovered so much of myself already. That brief instant, made me reveal myself but more important, it made me examine my life and eventually gave me the courage to come to terms with my fears.
I am tough, I’m strong. You think I am? You’re wrong.
For there are fears I never confronted
In my life’s circles I just tag along ~
Dare me say it ~ I just compensated.
I fear rejections, so I am alone.
My first taste of it when I was young,
Pierced me deep to my bone.
The scar ever fresh from the rejection’s fang.
I’m scared of goodbye’s, so I fear saying hello.
Why start a conversation that would end?
Friends like pages untouched turn yellow.
If only I have one, but trusted friend.
I fear mistakes, so I keep on learning.
I hunger for things that feed my mind.
But they never satiate this empty feeling.
They simply fill the time of my kind.
I fear failures, so I’m over working.
Thinking that work makes me happy.
Failures are lost when I’m absorbed on something.
But I was wrong, my job just enslave me.
I fear falling in love, so I forsake love.
The sting of rejection hits me this far.
‘Tis my shield, the only ghetto I have.
Hard to decipher like a mystic star.
I fear death, so I go on living.
This compensation did me more good.
Life moves me to face what I’m fearing.
Fate brought me standing before a forked road.
Should I walk back, move forth, or run away?
And just do the things that are expected of me.
I step forward and tread the road to a new day.
This path will determine my destiny.
My life from this point is how I choose it.
New beginnings prod me, and I don’t fear a bit.
Years later, as I write this, I re-examine my life. Where did that road took me? My choice made me go the distance, but it’s sad that the same road split my path from my friend who knows so much about me. And I’m not sure if somewhere, along the highways we tread, we’ll reach a station where our life’s paths would cross again.